Thursday, January 3, 2013

a fresh start


We woke up on boxing day to the sweet smell of french toast coming from the kitchen. Isn't it amazing that when you catch the scent of something so delicious waking up becomes much easier :) I think I actually did a little skip on the way over to the breakfast nook and when we saw the various berry toppings, well it sealed the deal that our final day with Sean's folks was gonna be a good one! This was the 1st time I went away for Christmas, I'd always spent it with my own family, so it was a BIG change to catch the ferry over to Vancouver Island and spend the holidays with Sean's whole fam-dam instead. We brought our kitteh crew too, the more the merrier right?! and with his parents dogs it was a bit of a scene but we all made out okay. My favorite part was going out for a long walk on trails through the woods, the air was crisp and clean as we strolled along. Breathing it all in was the perfect way to come down after the buzz of preparing for the hoopla of the season.


My heart oozes melancholy through the holidays, I miss my Dad a lot; he's been gone so long now. I miss having more time with friends and definitely more time with KASA. There are old wounds I see open up more and that's a good thing too because you just can't lay that musty ol' rug over everything all the time. There was a head full of housecleaning that needed to be done, having time to be with those thoughts is a true blessing and I'm grateful to have those kinds of moments, they remind me of this quote: 

"Sometimes surrender means giving up trying to understand and becoming 
comfortable with not knowing." 

The resolution/evolution I'm working on this year holds hands with that thought, it's the answer to my question "how do I feel okay again?" Sounds simple but wow is it ever a toughie to master. I hope everyone rolled along well with the changing tides this past year, here's to finding our own rhythm that stays on the beat through the next one too. Many blessings! xo ♥


17 comments:

Emily Lynne {The Best of this Life} said...

My husband lost his mother when he was 17 and for him, this time of year (as many other times throughout the year) - bring a strong memory of her to the surface. I think that as you walking through the sadness/missing and coming to settle back on the gratitude once again, is part of the love that you continue to have for your dad. Praying for your peace + sending hugs xo

Girl and Closet said...

Lynn, this is such a heartfelt & beautifully written post. It's making me want to curl up on your couch, with hot tea, and have a heart-to-heart!! You have such an amazing spirit and I know you'll find all that you're looking for. <3

I hear you on having more time with loved ones - it's something Martin & I are always consciously trying to work on. It's so important to be able to slow it all down and make time for the people around us. I feel like at the end of the day that's really all that matters. :)

And... these photos are SO lovely. Were they taken with you new lens and camera?! I can't wait to meet your new beauty + thanks so much for your comment and for warming my heart with your lovely and (as always) insightful words!! Happy 2013!! xo

Sara Strauss {Sincerely, Sara} said...

Beautiful pictures!! They remind me that I need to take more walks in the fresh winter air. I like that quote; it's perfect for life. It's sad, but sometimes we have to give up always trying to understand because then we'll always be searching and always be disappointed.

Happy New Year! I hope you can find your rhythm again!
~Sara

Sheila Lynn said...

Wow, absolutely gorgeous pictures. What type of camera do you use? I actually felt like I was right there on the walk with you. Stunning scenery. The perfect time to ponder the various things in life we cannot understand & sometimes never will .. which is so difficult to fully comprehend. Your quote sums it up nicely ..

cb said...

So freakin beautiful! Your xmas sounds so wonderful full of family and fur babies. It is always nice to have a change although traditions are comforting. I would just love to wake up to a house filled with the scent of french toast, yes please! Happy 2013 sweetie!! Xoxoxo

jessicajane said...

Beautiful photos, Lynn. It's been so long since I've visited your blog, or anyone's blogs for that matter. One of my resolutions is to blog more this year.

I know I miss my family during the holidays, but eventually, it gets easier. It never goes away, but it has gotten easier for me.

Dilan Dilir said...

the photos are so beautiful, it looks like a beautiful start :) ♥

LEIGH said...

Gorgeous pictures! Sounds like you had a wonderful holiday! I'm sorry to hear about your father :( Beautiful post though!

Kristen { Hello Monday Design } said...

Beautiful photos Lynn! You are quite the photographer! You have talent spewing everywhere! I have to tell you that I love your blog because you always speak from the heart and have the best insight. You motivate & inspire me! I hope 2013 will be a great year for you filled with lots of love and laughter. I always look forward to your posts as they always put a smile on my face and warm my heart. You are a true blessing and a light to the rest of the world. xoxo

Gaby said...

Your blog makes me miss Vancouver SO much! Lovely photos :)

canvasofculture said...

Your photos are so lovely. And truly thank you for your kind words and new years wishes! It was actually so nice to see your sweet comment waiting in my inbox after a long trip. I hope you have a wonderful 2013 and continue to share& expand your inspiring blog:)

xx

Nikki | The Ginger Diaries said...

Beautiful photos Lynn :) You have a talent! I am so happy to hear you had a great time with your in-laws :) Vancouver Island is a dream of mine, just like the whole of Canada actually :) I kinda got obsessed with the immensely overwhelming nature your country has to offer after a friend showed me photos of her visit last summer :)

I hope that in 2013, you can find the answer to your life's question. And I just want to hug you! Happy new year! :)

xo Nikki

Daria said...

Hello :) Thank you so much for the comment you left on my blog, it was the sweetest thing ever! <3

I've just looked at your blog and I love it! I seriously adore your home decorations in the 'christmas tree post' (is that weird haha) :) Wishing you all the best! Xxx

Jess said...

Happy Happy New Year!!!!! Looks like a wonderful way to make afresh start with a new year (and I'm sure the French toast wasn't a bad touch either!) looking forward to seeing what 2013 will bring all of us!

Cee said...

I think we're blogging reading in tandem, lades - too funny. It looks like you had an absolutely breathtaking holiday. I have to admit, I'm surprised that you've never been away for Christmas before, so kudos to you for taking the leap! I think my best, or at least most memorable, holidays have definitely been spent away from home. And what better way to spend it than with friends, family and fur babies, right? I can just picture the cat and dog scene; the cats in our building can't even get along {hence Porkie seeking refuge at our place} so I think it's admirable you managed to get both speies to co-exist! Tis the magic of the season, right? :) I hope 2013 is starting off in a wonderful, magical way for you. I think it's going to be a good one ;)
xox,
Cee
PS: Thanks so much for your sweet message about the gathering, it means a lot to me that you're carrying on the tradition and including me {and my guests!} from afar :)

Lynn {hearted girl} said...

HNY girls!!!! i hope everyone has turned a soft corner to arrive too :) thanks for all the super sweet wishes, you guys are the best!!!!

and V, that'd be the one - i've been practising with the new camera since the moment i ripped it's package open - baha! love the results, what a difference too.

xo ♥

Lynn {hearted girl} said...

oh Sheila Lynn, i totally brain stumbled and forgot to answer your question...sorry lades! i just got a new camera for xmas and have fallen deeply in digital love with it. it's a Canon Rebel T4i and i also got a 50mm portrait lens which makes these amazing gaussian blur type bokeh's in the background. been playing with it non stop since i opened the package :) cheers! ♥