We woke up on boxing day to the sweet smell of french toast coming from the kitchen. Isn't it amazing that when you catch the scent of something so delicious waking up becomes much easier :) I think I actually did a little skip on the way over to the breakfast nook and when we saw the various berry toppings, well it sealed the deal that our final day with Sean's folks was gonna be a good one! This was the 1st time I went away for Christmas, I'd always spent it with my own family, so it was a BIG change to catch the ferry over to Vancouver Island and spend the holidays with Sean's whole fam-dam instead. We brought our kitteh crew too, the more the merrier right?! and with his parents dogs it was a bit of a scene but we all made out okay. My favorite part was going out for a long walk on trails through the woods, the air was crisp and clean as we strolled along. Breathing it all in was the perfect way to come down after the buzz of preparing for the hoopla of the season.
My heart oozes melancholy through the holidays, I miss my Dad a lot; he's been gone so long now. I miss having more time with friends and definitely more time with KASA. There are old wounds I see open up more and that's a good thing too because you just can't lay that musty ol' rug over everything all the time. There was a head full of housecleaning that needed to be done, having time to be with those thoughts is a true blessing and I'm grateful to have those kinds of moments, they remind me of this quote:
"Sometimes surrender means giving up trying to understand and becoming
comfortable with not knowing."
~ Eckhart Tolle ~
The resolution/evolution I'm working on this year holds hands with that thought, it's the answer to my question "how do I feel okay again?" Sounds simple but wow is it ever a toughie to master. I hope everyone rolled along well with the changing tides this past year, here's to finding our own rhythm that stays on the beat through the next one too. Many blessings! xo ♥